Paramore is the shiz :d

So, I'm in a decent mood right now, so I thought I'd write a blog. If you notice when you type blog, it is spelled wrong; why is that? I don't understand it.

Anyways. My life. It's kinda dull right now. I rarely leave the house. There's just nothing to do in the outside world. Sure, I have friends in low and high places, but those places aren't here. I see them occasionally, but never really hang out, you know? 

School starts in 8 days. Fun... D: I hope I have a better time this year. Last year wasn't exactly the smoothest I've had. And recently I decided to bring out my gamecube and play some Paper Mario. It's funny how you just know where to find everything the second time around when you couldn't find a single thing the first time. I wanted to do a walkthrough on youtube, but I don't have a cool tv video camera thingy majiger. So I'm content with just enjoying the game I guess. Speaking of youtube, my MegaAnimeUploads channel is getting more and more popular every day. I used to have excellent competition, but then she got a notice from youtube telling her to stop uploading InuYasha. I feel sorry for her, especially since I have uploaded more than her and have yet...YET...to get a notice. Even if I did get a notice, I would just make another account. I have about 100,000 views on my channel, and 150 some subscribers. I like those numbers. They make me feel like some people notice me. lol. 

I can't seem to stop thinking about certain people, and things that could of played out differently, but didn't. Choices I made that affected my life in major ways. To great to even comprehend. It makes me angry thinking about it. And depressed. I think about what could have been...and I lose my train of thought. I think about my first girlfriend often. We had an up and down relationship, even after we broke up. But we were still great friends that listened to each other. It breaks my heart that I don't get to see her. I was used to seeing her and her brother and family everyday. Going cold turkey does not help my psychy. It's amazing that I haven't given into this depression. I see what could lie in my future, and I push forward, as best as I can. Like I found out I want a pet Fennec fox when I get my own place. Sure, it could never happen and probably won't, but thinking about it brings happiness. And that little bit is enough, at least for a short time. Another big thing I think about is Ohio. I miss everybody there. Except for a few choice people. I met a few hundred people at my last school, and become great friends with a lot of them, but I never see them, let alone talk to them much. I just feel they'll forget me. I mean, I know so many people, that I'm forgetting people I've known for years just because I haven't seem them in a while. I only can keep people close around me in my memory. Sure, I can remember a face, But even then, I have a hard time trying to remember if I know them from here or Ohio. And I feel terrible for it. People say hey but I forget who they are. So many things on my mind that I can't focus at all.

As I continue writing this, I get even more and more saddened. Slipping into a depression. Though I may forget some people, the memories are all there. Even the painful ones. I just can't forget those for some reason. I want them gone but they won't leave. They haunt me. I try not to think about anything, just live in the moment to avoid a depression. It's a wonder I don't have ulcers from so much stress. School won't help at all. I don't know what I'm gonna do. Oh well. 

I'm taking a break for a few days from uploading on my youtube channel so that I can elax and enjoy the last fragments of my summer. I'll have to come up with a schedule to work around during the school year. I'm not very good with managing my time at all. So, I will try to put up a blog every few days or so, recollecting everything I've done and some thoughts along with it. I've got to get my mind on other things. I will see you guys later. And if you are reading this Tator, I want you to know that I love and miss you a lot :*] Just remember, I am always in your heart, and you in mine. ~Zack

Youtube, My first success?

So, I made an account on youtube on July 1oth, and that would be MegaAnimeUploads. So far I have uploaded over 70 videos in just 16 days. I'm pretty proud of myself. People say they like my videos and hope to see more. Granted I'm uploading InuYasha, but at least I do it well. I get about 1000-1500 views a day now, and I'm sitting at 24 subscribers. With 34 episodes up already, I should catch up with everyone else (who are also uploading) and surpass them by the 1 of next month (If I don't slack off). I didn't think I would actually get popular, considering the HUGE amount of people putting up InuYasha, But I guess all my hard work pays off. That or because I put "HQ" at the end of each video O.o Meh. I have two cats now. Well, I've had them for nearly 3 weeks or so. They are about 3 months old and are nuisances. But they have cool defining characteristics that help you tell them apart (they are both full black). Mine, with a black collar, has orange eyes, is lazy, more dominant than the other, sleeps in my bed, doesn't purr no matter how much you give him attention, and he is very observant. While the other, my aunt's, is obnoxious, less dominant, wild, has green eyes, holds his tail high, and purrs the second you touch him. lol. Well, that's all I have to say for now. Good job on your blog page SFBW. Later!

Back so soon?

Yup, I'm back. I took a break, it's not like a ton of people really read this anyways. Where have I been you ask? Well, let me tell you. Thinking. A lot. I'm not really go into detail because it really doesn't concern you.

Anyways. I've created A few new "projects" to keep me busy for a while. 2 being on youtube. One http://www.youtube.com/user/zackstroodles is where i do random game playthroughs. Also, on the other http://www.youtube.com/user/MegaAnimeUploads I am uploading full seasons of anime. Hence the name "MegaAnimeUploads". I made the account 12 days ago, and I already have 22 episodes of InuYasha up. The channel features the highest quality episodes I could "find". Also, I'll be putting up all 4 InuYasha movies when the right episodes get up. So far, this should occupy my time for a good some of time. The mic I use for recording is a rockband microphone, haha. and it's taped to a lamp as a makeshift stand.

So far, I have been told that the episodes I have been putting up are of better quality then my competition. I'm staying up all night just to see if I can catch up to how many episodes they have. It can be bothersome editing these videos so that youtube will allow them on. I have to use dumb old Windows Movie Maker to cut it in half, so that it's under 11 minutes long. Then I have to save then file to my computer (takes about 10 minutes), then I upload it to Youtube (which take 20-30 minutes.). And not to help the matter in any way, the video sometimes fails to upload because I get a low connection in my room. Anyways, you should check it out if you like anime.

Back to other things. I dreamt last night. I don't usually do so. But I dreamt of my first gf and a lot of other random things. in the morning I woke up sad, even though it was a happy dream. It got me to thinking of my first gf, now my ex, which I broke up with in a moment of doubt. Such a dumb mistake. Anyways, I found out that I STILL have feeling for her, even though I moved out of state 7 or so months ago, and broke up with her about a year ago. It's crazy.

So today I've been all sad and stuff, reminiscing and such. Except that it's the next day in the morning. I'm a little to jacked up on energy shots to feel much of anything. But I was feeling really down. 

I found out the the guy she was dating broke up with her. That also saddened me. I want her to be happy more than anything. I heard what happened and realized that it couldn't have been adverted. I just hope she will be ok. She seems ok I guess. (We talked a little today{yesterday})

Another topic. I got Diablo 2 with the "Lord of Destruction" exspansion. It ROCKS!! It completely renews the game. I love it. It adds two new classes which is amazing. And many new Items. I will also be getting Starcraft 2 as soon as I can. I love starcraft and the new one looks amazing.

I noticed that my buddy...um...well, I follow him on here. Well, I noticed that he sure does keep up on his blog.. I envy him, very much so. I just can't seem to stick with anything for very long. Like I tried to start a pokemon adoption agency via wireless connection XD It's a good idea, I just got lazy and gave up on it. I even made a site for it and such. Oh well. I hope this anime thing catches on. I would love to be somewhat popular on youtube :D (Sorry about forgetting you're name, too hyper right now D:)

So, what else is there....Oh, on the 28 I will be going to a Modern Warfare tournament for C.O.D. 4. (same thing isn't it? O.o) I found out that the best player around here singed up, so we're all doomed. There goes that 300 dollar cash prize. oh well.

That's all I have to say to you guys today, sorry for making you sit through this entire thing. I'll be sure to make these shorter next time. Oh, I almost forgot. I kinda gave up on learning Japanese for now, too busy with life. Be sure to check out those sites and have a good night. toodles!!

Can't take the kid from the fight, Take the fight from the kid. Sit back relax, sit back relapse again.

Maybe I was a little harsh before. I wont "stop" my blogs. But they will be postponed, until a more appropriate time. That's all I have to say today. Sorry I wasted your time. Later.

I'm done

I'm done writing my blog. A lot of stuff came up that I just can't deal with a blog.

I'm back. Low and behold. I've been busy with my life. My house burnt down, I lost everything. We're finally adjusting in a new house. I learned that I never seem to put an "s" on site when it's plural. rofl. I will be moving back you Bismarck for the kids who know me. I should be going back to Bismarck this coming school year. I have nothing to talk about right now. I'm tired. I'll let you guys get on with your life. Later.

Westville, IL Fire Department

Update

I know, I know. It's been a little while since I've typed a blog. But I've been busy, considering my house burnt down, lol. (not funny). Anyways. I'm currently staying at a hotel, until Tuesday. Then we are going to rent someone's house for a while. I'm going to my mom's about the weekend after the 10th of June. The reason I'm awake right now is because I'm jacked up on cheap energy drink. Yay for crashing sometime later. I was at my uncle's friday and saturday. I only have tuesday and then i'm done with finals. (dont judge my laziness at typing, im kinda getting tired). I sent some messages to host families in Japan seeing about future moving arrangements lol. I want to move up there soon D: I'll tell you if any of them "get back at me." <-slang. I've been practicing my Japanese alphabet some. woot. the japanese word of the day is Inu (EE-new) which means dog. A good band is Bare Naked Ladies. im gonna crash now, so I'll talk to you guys later. I tend to have a habbit of typing these really late =_= night

A fire in Westville

there was a fire in westville today around 2pm. There was no one home at the time, so no one was hurt. Why am I concerned about someone's house burning? One reason, it was my house. And they fail to mention there was someone in there, my dog...no one could get him out because he was too scared to leave the house. he's dead, the house is gone, and all out belongings and memories are gone. im noy worried so much about the possesions, you can buy new ones. No, you can't replace Rex. He was like a brother to me. We wrestled and slept together, and he pouted whenever i was gone more than a day. I can't even keep there tears in as i write this. he's gone and it feels like another part of me has died. just this morning he was waking me up for school, then i had to watch them bring him out in a bag after school. hes gone....gone....everything is gone. everything i owned. i dony know what to do. it hurts so much... im gonna try to go to sleep, even though i know i can't. i never got to say goodbye.....

PIRATe BAY CLOSED

Japanese *word* of the day. ~I am hungry-"Onaka ga sukimashita" (Oh-nah-kah,gah,sue-key-mah-shee-tah)~ I'm working out a way to save up money for Japan. Now I just need to get a job :/ But I started saving, yay. ^_^ Also, I'm trying to learn basic Japanese gramar, vocab, vowels, and greeting/introductions. Believe me, this will take a while. It's not extremely hard, it's just remembering it when you don't use it regularly.........On to more pressing issues, PIRATE BAY CLOSED DOWN!!! So yeah, "Pirate Bay was offline on Monday, leading to speculation about a shut down. An injunction was recently won by Hollywood film studios that ordered Pirate Bay's bandwidth provider, CB3ROB.net, to stop providing service. CB3ROB.net was facing fines and jail time if it did not stop routing Pirate Bay's traffic. TorrentFreak claims that Pirate Bay has a back up plan to bring everything back online." For more info, click HERE. I noticed that I stay up late every night, then wake up early. Now, I'm not an expert, but I think that's just a tad unhealthy. I could have mild insomnia. My mind is just always running. That also might be cause by thinking about Japan XD....Man, my hands are so shaky right now. This is the post-sleepiness-hyperness kicking in. I'm so tired that I'm hyper and can't type correctly. lol.

Blargh, Dear no existent readers, could I ask you to give me some input if you could? That would be fantastic. :3

My grades, oh mah gawd. I'm not doing to well in Spanish and English. I can't speak a lick of Spanish, and I just think the English teacher hates me. Just saying. Monday was really cold and rainy. I got to talk to my best friend on facebook for several hours. That may not seem like much, but she lives 6 hours away from my current location. Speaking of location, I'm moving back in with my father after summer.

It all started out when my parents got divorced when I was 2. I stayed with my dad in W, Illinois, while my mom moved 30 minutes away in C,Illinois. Soon afterwards my dad and I moved in with my grandparents who lived 5 minutes away from our house. I would visit with my mom every other weekend, in her small apartment. I got to go to Chicago twice with her and her boyfriend within that time. We lived at my grandmother's in W,IL until I was 7, then we moved about 20 minutes away from my grandmother, in D,IL. My dad met a girl and we moved in with her. (This is about the time my mom met another guy and moved up to C,Ohio.) I finished my 1st grade year at W grade school, then went to D Lutheran for 2nd grade. I know, religion. Tell me about it. Anyways, they didn't like that school, so I went to the regular public school in D,IL for 3rd grade. They, my dad and stepmother, didn't like that school either, so I attended B grade school in B,IL for 4th grade until 8th grade.I went to the school, which was 15 minutes away, by registering in at my stepmother's parent's house. In about 7th grade, we moved into a house 5 minutes away from our house. It was/is nice. During the time between 6th and 7th grade, my mom broke up with the guy she was with, (though they had a kid a few years previous.) My mother met another guy at the end of my 7th grade year. At the end of my 8th grade year, I decided that I wanted to go live with my mother.....

That's all I'm putting tonight/morning. I will explain why I moved and what I dealt with over the years. And so my mom doesn't seem like a bad person, She was with the first guy for a few years, with the second (who she had the kid with) for about 7 or 8 years, and she is still with the 3rd guy. He is a great father figure to me and is always there for me. they had a kid a month ago actually. Cute little boy.

I'm dead tired, so I bid you Adu, Oyasumi Nasai (good night) :3

Japan!

That's right, Japan. I've always wanted to visit there, and someday I want to live there. I just like the Japanese culture is cool, and it's something new......SO, anyways, I found a site that describes some of the areas in Japan. First one that caught my eye was Tohoko. Although this place is isolated and rural and you prolly won't get rich there, it's also fairly cheap to live there, if I could get a job. It also has some of the best-preserved culture and nature in the nation. "People who live in the Tohoku region will have the most chances to experience unique festivals, see life as it was many years ago, visit well-preserved towns and temples, and learn about traditional, rural culture." "The downside to living in a place with as few foreigners as Tohoku, is that one is much more likely to treated differently, or be the focus of unwanted attention. Many residents complain about "English bandits" (people who try to become your friend because they want to practice their English or be seen with a foreigner) trying to insinuate themselves into their lives." However, "The upside is that you will have lots of opportunities to interact with the local people and to practice your Japanese." This would be a great starting place to live so that I could learn more about Japan's culture and their language........Another place that I liked was Kobe, in the Kansai region. "There is a large foreign community, and the city is one of the most attractive, convenient places you will see in Japan. After the earthquake, the city was entirely rebuilt, and it is surrounded by beautiful mountains." The economy doesn't seem to be too bad there and the area looks great too.......The Chūburegiondoesn't sound too bad either, except for Nagoya. "This region is a wonderful place to live if you like a slow-paced life, nature, and traditional culture. The city of Kanazawa in Ishikawa prefecture, in particular, seems like it would be a wonderful place to live. It is a cultural paradise, with many interesting shrines, temples, museums, old buildings and well-preserved buildings, it is not too far from Osaka and Kyoto, and seems very liveable--large enough that it would not be too difficult to get a job, but small enough that you would not have to put up with the crowded trains and dirty air of Osaka or Tokyo."........As some of you know, I'm not a big fan of the cold, so Kyushu and Shikoku could be the places for me. "There arenft many foreigners in Kyushu and Shikoku, so they would be great places for people who want to learn the language or see everyday rural life. Kyushu gets hit by the worst typhoons in Japan and has more than its fair share of volcanoes and earthquakes but these are usually more like annoyances involving delayed trains or flooded roads than actual dangers."......I'm dead tired, so I'm gonna hit the hay. I was gonna put more, but my minds drawing a blank. I wish everyone a good day/night. Later. :3

Fun fun friday

I can't remember the last time I posted a real blog. School has been keeping me busy. Lots of stuff to study and such. um, where should I start this...Well last weekend I went to my dad's. He got me a new bike. It's awesome and I love it. Then that same day I hung out with, you guessed it, Fawna. I was in the neighborhood and visited her house and ended up playing Call of Duty WaW with her and her dad. I won of course :D. Then me, her, Jacob H., Taylor N., and some other people from Bismarck went to go see the new Nightmare on Elms Street. It was cheesy but I still had fun. I also decided to move back in with my dad. It was a tough decision, but it had to be done. I would have my friends, my grades would be better. It would help my overall welfare I guess.....I've been having a lot of trouble in school recently. There are quite a few kids that don't like me. So they like to tell each other that I say stuff about each of them. One kid ended up getting really mad and now want to beat my face in. But if he does he gets suspended. God I love having the school on my side. But the side effect is that I can't really leave my house or I'll get jumped. He was actually patrolling my neighborhood today. Odd isn't it?........Well, onto more personal issues. As some of you may know, there is a girl at Bismarck that I have liked since 5th grade. That would be Fawna. Well, when I go back to Bismarck, I'll also be going back to the role of chasing after her feebly. One can dream can't they? Other than her there is one other person I like just as much. She's my best friend up in Ohio and is always there for me. We're there for each other, through thick 'n thin, Tator and Tot. I feel torn between these two honestly :/. I'll just have to wait and see how life plays out.......I've been around the internet quite a bit, getting accounts on God knows how many sites, just so people can keep in contact with me. I'll put up details on my main site on zoomshare........Japanese word of the day is "Iku"(ee-Ku) which means "to go". Today's band is They Might Be Giants......Oh, before I forget, MY SCREEN BROKE!! I dropped my computer and the screen cracked, and it's been getting worse and worse ever since. D: I am sad. Tomorrow I have to get up at 7 a.m. so that we can go to my cousin Alex's graduation party in Louisville, Kentucky. Fun 3 and a half hour trip. I'll be sure to keep you guys updated on twitter, http://twitter.com/zackstraughn , and that's all I have to say about that.....I just finished Forest Gump a little while ago, and no matter how many times I watch it, I never get tired of it. It's just so sad.....I also beat Portal yesterday in about 3 hours or so, if not less. It was fun......If Pandora doesn't work for you, you'll probably have to make an account on their website......That's about all I have to say here, so I'm gonna end it dramatically....................................................................TOODLES :3

Well. This is my first blog *on here*. I'll write more later because I am dead tired. Check out my main site at www.zackstraughn.zoomshare.com. :3 thanks